So this is what it feels like to be lonely. to be waking up everyday, not knowing who to talk to. i've always been the kind of person who likes to be alone, but this loneliness is going overboard. its almost as if loneliness can't be used anymore to describe how i'm feeling. i feel empty. dull. dark. i crave for someone's attention.everyday, i think about you. are you happy? is it true, when you dream about someone, that person is also dreaming about you too? i don't know if i can bear it any longer not seeing you. just a glimpse of you is enough to satisfy me. why is it so difficult to forger about you? what is it that makes you so special? because its impossible for us to be together, then there is no point of hoping, right? but i can't leave you. i just can't cross the thought that i'm not going to see you again. i ache by the thought of you with someone else. even so, id rather see you with someone else than not seeing you at all. its not because you make me feel special, because that's not the case. its not because of your interesting personality. its just you. you being who you are. i'm not good in expressing how i feel, even through writing. i hope that one day we'll meet again. whether its 3 years, 5 years, or even 10 years from now. i want to know and reminisce the feelings that i had that could possibly be love. this rare feeling that is kept in the secret box of my cold heart. and by that time, i hope you would be happy. just be happy.