-this ship is taking me far away, far away from the memories.
I have tons of friends, but why do i feel so alone most of the time? its as if i have no one to talk to. to express my missionaries and depths. like i'm the only one who gets me. like if there is a room full of people, i'd be the one who say hi, but then walk over to the corner of the room and sit by myself. zipping my mouth as if i'm handy cap. don't get me wrong, they are all nice people. maybe its just me. i am altered from the usual.
in seek of empathize, gratification and similarity. is that too much to ask?
it appears that i'm rather eccentric. and if i'm honest, it would hurt people's feelings, but when i am lying and faking it, it would also be revolting to others. the what am i suppose to be like? we can't satisfy everybody. its up the individuals to compromise and accept flaws. all in all, it does not change the situation of me feeling lonesome most of the time.
like that song Houdini, its easier to say that...
"Sometimes i wanna disappear."