school ended about 4 weeks ago. and here i am, feeling lost and confused about so many things in my life that i can't even describe how it precisely feels like. where am i heading after this? should i get a job first? but where? if not, then what should i do at home? should i get a driver's license? which university should i apply? i wonder what course i should take? hell, what am i even good at.... what if i don't get a good result? am i going to see my friends again? i wonder what they are doing right now. gosh, i miss them. screw everything.
i'm just not ready for this. i feel lonely. i feel lost. i feel like i don't belong anywhere. i remembered what my teacher use to tell me in school " you would all feel lost and don't belong anywhere" and she's right. its like i'm trying to find something but i don't know what i'm searching for. i'm afraid of making decisions. i'm afraid of the future. i'm a total mess. is the time moving too fast? because it feels just like yesterday that i entered junior high.and now i'm out from school. forever. my capabilities are minimal. i'm not that intelligent. i don't have a specific skill. i'm lazy. i'm afraid of challenges.Oh God, help me face the future valiantly. that is all i'm asking for at the moment.